All Choices have Consequences

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All Choices have Consequences
After decades of living the up’s and down’s of life I realized that I was not happy or satisfied with my life so far. I was either on top of the world doing well with what life had dealt me or was at the bottom. Each bottom was a little worse and got to the point that my life was miserable all the time. I ask myself, “Why is my life like this”? My life was a total wreck! Something had to change. At that point in my life I came to the realization that the problem was me!
Since my choices and decisions appeared to be poorly made, I concluded that the first problem that needed immediate attention was irrational thinking. My thinking was not realistic. One example of thinking irrational was my childhood dream to be a successful businessman in the Oil and Gas Industry. This belief was top priority. I had neglected numerous responsibilities in my life trying to fulfill this belief. I believed that if I accomplished this belief all other priorities would be fulfilled to such as the money would take care of my happiness priority. My rationalizations and justifications were not really even close to being realistic. What I did not consider was the importance of the other priorities that I was neglecting. My first priority should have been having a close relationship with my only daughter, which was almost non-existent through her childhood and spending time with my family. Other priorities that were neglected
were: responsibilities, happiness, health, education and religion. You could not convince me that my thinking was wrong and I was making the wrong choices. What is wrong with this picture?
To complicate my life even more, I had a serious alcohol and drug problem. Of course you could not get me to admit this and I truly believed that I was just a social and occasional user. I started using at age fifteen. With little thoughts like: “Everyone is doing it, why not”, “Do you want t...